Creative energy in a male body.

I recently created a task for myself to teach a workshop on "Harnessing creative energy" for men.

My ideas for the workshop are based on my own experiences of using and discovering my creative talents and skills.   As a clairvoyant (psychic) reader that a person is a complex organism of Chakras and Energy channels where information and experience is channeled and processed.  In my workshop I plan to find and integrate these 2 aspects of information into a practical and informative lecture with hands on experiential practice, with a goal of instigating goals for creative application.

As I see it creative energy for a man is both intellect and creative dexterity.  When I was in my pre- and teenage years, my creative energy was turning on because of the hormonal changes of adolescence.  You see creative energy is very much tied to sexual energy in fact it comes from the same source and is essentially the same energy.  The difference between creative and sexual energy is how it is used, this is true for both men and women.

When I was 14 years old I spent tremendous amounts of my free time reading text books, mostly math and computer books.  I am now 50, back then the Internet did not exists and the only expansive source of information was the Public Library or large commercial and university bookstores.  When I was 9 a used to spend time drawing with a pencil, mostly I did sketches of objects and self portraits using the bathroom mirror.  I was actually pretty good.  My mother is a painter and artist.  My father had re-married and either out of resentment or ignorance was concerned I would turn out to be like my mother, that is to say overly sensitive and with her head in a fantasy world.  According to my father these were the things that made a person weak.  Needless to say he convinced me to stop drawing and concentrate on more traditional activities such as sports.

I have always tall and lanky for my age growing up.  I often felt clumsy and dis-connected from my body.  I was good at football and volleyball, but generally found most competitive sports uncomfortable and that I had inadequacy for competing with others.  I later learned from my meditations that this was mostly because of my mothers protective energy that basically discouraged me from anything that could be potentially dangerous or uncomfortable.  It wasn't until my twenties that I began to separate out and release my mothers protection energy.  I guess it is still amazing to me how much both my parents stifled and influenced my creativity.  I have always thought of myself as an individual separate and unique for everyone else.

My creative development changed very much between my childhood, teenage years, twenties & thirties and the following years.  There is definitely a link at least for me between my creativity and my social expression.  The same control and protective energies that limited my ability to interact with others also controlled my ability to create and express myself.  As a child I had no trouble drawing, appreciating beauty and expressing myself.  In my teens my creative was channeled into intellectual pursuits such as computers and mechanical drawing.  I did try getting into music and enjoyed the keyboard and guitar, but the same frustration of being able to produce what I saw in my mind's eye prevented me from continuing to develop my drawing and musical skills. In my twenties and thirties, I began to re-explore sports and became a professional video game programmer.  I loved my job creating video games, it was a real time interactive level of art that included the user and allowed them to channel their skill within a scaled or limited  environment.  Sort of like isolated muscle exercises or therapy, but for the mind and hand to eye coordination. My forties I used my creativity for others to create websites and professional easy to use intuitive commercial applications, I also used it in marketing and teaching curriculum's applying my perception on how people learned and processed their experience and information presented to them to create highly effective and successful presentations.  Now in my fifties I am returning to art as a form of my expression, although I use my creativity in very diverse ways capitalizing on all my previous years of development.

I have heard more than a few people say that, "the affliction of all artists is the inability to ever perfectly create what they see in their mind's eye."  It is funny to me that most of use fail to see that creativity is a marriage of both spirit and body that is processes and used through the intellect and our physical dexterity.  We tend to get programmed by our own and other people's visual experience.  For example if you hear a live version at a club of a band or singer presenting a popular song that we have heard and enjoyed on the radio or on our music player, many of use will condemn this new unique version because it does not match what we perceive as the original version.  If we sing in front of others, we may feel that our delivery is not good enough because it does not match what we hear in our mind from our previous experiences of the song.  When we compare our expression to a picture or experience, we tend to automatically invalidate our ability because it does not match that expectation.

From these my experiences I have learned that creativity is stifled and limited by our lack of experience, expectations and critical perception on what we produce, foreign energy and information invested in us by our family, friends, environment and whatever education or media we are exposed to.  Of course all these sources are also nourishment for our creativity, but until they are properly processed and digested these experiences do just as much to poison us as they do to nourish us.

Yet, to enjoy and use your creativity one must not be critical, or at least not so much as to loose touch with what we are at the present.  It is arrogance to believe we can properly critic ourselves at any given moment. We can only do this in hindsight, and even then we will always be somewhat in error in our evaluations.  This because we are always ignorant of ourselves to some degree however small that may be.  It is irrelevant to evaluate or critic our creativity because it is a process like everything else in life.  We can only learn and grow in our creativity and when we have the courage to leave our mark upon the world that we been here and contributed to it.

Now that we have had some time to think about and meditate on some ideas and experiences of our creativity, let us begin in exploring how we create and express ourselves...

Tutorial: Grounding and releasing tutorial.

Lecture: male energy comes from the testicles and is channeled in various ways through the body. There is a natural tendency for this energy to run down and then loop up into the middle-back of the body near the spine and through each of the Chakras.  When the energy is run in this fashion it is used as a healing or competitive physical energy in the body.  This promote both sexual and physical drive within the body and validates our physical and sexual nature.

The male creative energy from the testicles can also be run directly up though the front of the body through each of the Chakras where is fuels more of a creative and expressive level of experience.

There is a difference between these to general ways of running this energy is whether you are operating from sexual body information or from more spiritual or higher level of information.

Exercise: Run the energy downward and meditate of the experience of having your male energy running in this fashion.  Then direct the energy up and meditate on that experience.  What do you notice?   Pick a partner and share with them your experience of running your energy the 2 different ways.

Q & A: on running male energy.

Exercise: draw a graph or grid with 4 columns and 4 rows.  Along the horizontal heading write "Childhood", "Between", and "Present"; along the vertical first column write "Sports/Competitive", "Intellect", "Artistic/Expressive".  For each of the other cells imagine a flower: write the color and openness of each flower you imagine.  Partner up with a clairvoyant student or graduate and swap with them to get a reading on how you use and have developed your creativity.  Graduates, should do a self-reading as well and share with their partner on the trade.


Q & A: on how they have used and developed their creativity in the different areas of their life at different times.

Lecture: To control or be controlled by our male energy.  There is really no issue between how you use your male energy.  But if our spiritual goals and sexual body agenda is in conflict we may find ourselves creating problems or situations we do not like.  To deny either agenda is many ways is to be in competition with oneself.  If we are at conflict with ourselves there is no end to the frustration and strife we may experience.  It is often helpful to understand our genetic / sexual programming or needs; likewise we must begin to know ourselves as spirit. By saying hello to these aspects of our being-ness we can begin to integrate on come to a solid and powerful utilization of our creative power.  Many people agree that men are meant to be potent and sow their seeds far and wide, in many cases we will compete to be the dominant or alpha male within our social group or peers.  If we find we cannot compete we either find an area or group that we can compete in or we suffer in pain of being inadequate.  Our physical being-ness can both rewarding and critical of our existence and how we live our life.  Furthermore the women around us will tend to encourage this intense level of competition as their genetic programming instructs them to bond with the strongest or most suitable mate.  Yet without this intense programming to compete we as men will lack a strong driving force and creativity.  The answer in making this struggle work for you in a validating and integrated way is to say hello to who you are as a genetic male entity, learn how to utilize this part of yourself and apply it toward your goals.  Not to loose site of your genetic programming and needs, but rather to channel this power also into areas that serve you both as spirit and body in your life on a holistic level.  How you do this is up to you, but I might suggest you start by looking at what you are already doing well in general creative areas of your life, and also look where you would like to get more on track or be more powerful within yourself and your life.

Exercize: come up with 4 areas or tasks in your life where you are powerful.  Then come up with 4 areas of your life that you wish to start or become more powerful.  Think of how you can accomplish this.

Exersize: releasing pain and failure.

Meditation: Run your male creative energy for 3 minutes while considering your goals or the tasks you have set for yourself.

Benediction.

Building the Be Psychic Network

Be Psychic was my school in Singapore, serving Singapore, Malaysia and Indonesia.  It is based on the tools and techniques taught at the Berkeley Psychic Institute that was founded by Lewis S Bostwick.

The tools and techniques are all about finding and owning oneself.  Intuition and Psychic abilities are basically the natural abilities inherent in everyone.  For many they are overly sensitive and for some they are numb, but the techniques basically help everyone by making it easy and safe to be in touch with one's inner voice and sensitivity.  So whether a person is simply looking to have a greater control over ones life or if they wish to development themselves, the techniques are a god send.

I had started one other school previously in the California, USA, which I left in the care of one of my assistance after 1 year of operation.  Both schools have since closed, but my Singapore school taught over 2000 people how to meditate, ground, de-energize, release, find their center and space and to heal themselves.

I started by offering Clairvoyant Aura Readings, which are session where I look into the person and tell them about themselves, the things influencing their lives and answer their questions on topics that they ask about.  I also began offering meditation instruction. Using a technique known as "energy meditation", which uses neutral energy from the earth and the universe while doing simple sitting meditation.

After some time I rented an office space by the hour to teach group classes. Eventually I had requests to teach a Clairvoyant Reading course.  For this I sublet space from an NLP organization, they graciously allowed me to keep my brochures at the space there.  My first clairvoyant class in Singapore was 6 people, 1 of which dropped out half way through. The other 5 continued on to be junior staff for the first few years of our operation.

An interesting thing about teaching Clairvoyance, which is using the mind's eye to see into people, situation and truth, is that it causes big changes in the people who learn to use it.  These changes generally have to do with the person getting to know themselves better and having a better understanding of why they are in there body and in their current life.  It only took about 5 weeks before there was a big stir in the NLP center where we were conducting our classes.  The director of the NLP school began to worry we were going to take all their students, because many of their student began to sign up for our beginning meditation and healing courses.  More over, our work was effecting the people in the school causing them to open up clairvoyantly.  For the most part this meant either people were very curious or very unhappy with us.  It is not uncommon for people who are not ready to grow to resistant others that are growing especially at such a rapid pace.  I knew at that point we would have to get our own office.

8 months after I started teaching our first clairvoyant class, we obtained a lease at Paradise Center in Singapore.  We were way up on the 7th floor, which unfortunately was well away from any foot traffic and people generally had a hard time finding our office who were coming for the first time.  But it worked out well for the first year of operation.  It was a large space which I divided into 3 areas using high partitions, which didn't do much for privacy but did allow us to run a few readings or classes at the same time.

I recruited my wife to teach beginning Healing techniques class, and one of the second clairvoyant class graduates to teach beginning female creative energy classes.   I was lucky that I had been previous in a relationship with a women who had taught the female classes so I also knew a bit about how these were to be taught.  I only had to teach women about their own creative energy for the first class session with my new budding female teacher assisting me, after that she took over as the senior women's teacher.

For the most part all of the classes we taught were exactly the same as what I had learned and taught at the Berkeley Psychic Institute, I had been very uncomfortable with changing anything too much.  The things I did change were the class lengths, which became 6 week classes instead of the eight week taught at the BPI.  This was because I found Singaporeans to be fairly impatient and many did not like to commit for more that 6 weeks.  I have found out since that BPI also shorten their classes to 6 weeks, and then later to 4 weeks long. Shorter classes meant higher turnover of students and more entry points into the classes which made sense business-wise.  I think that 4 weeks is actually too short, I prefer the students spend enough time in the classroom that what they learn becomes second nature and they are less likely to forget what they learned. For our clairvoyant classes we ran a 3 month cycle of entry, with a 6 month cycle to graduate.  By dividing the 6 month program into 2 parts that gradually built on previous weeks concepts, we were able to make the time-frame work quite well.  In addition we have five advanced 6-week courses for graduates of the clairvoyant course on topics such a relationship, future, family, money/business and mediumship reading.

By the time our little school was 4 years old we had to move again to a larger space, this time into Peninsula Plaze in the downtown Singapore business area.  The space was actually smaller but divided into 2 classroom spaces with a small area at the front for reception.

We had this young lady named Nadine who was the daughter of some friends of mine who ran a Releasing School.  She took some of the beginning classes and was very keen, so I offered her a work for pay deal to pay for here Clairvoyant training. She worked for us for 3 months, then began the training.  By the time she graduated she was one of our best psychics, and helped up setup and run many outside exhibitions and  readings at events, parties and places of business.

Nadine, has since began teaching some of the techniques in Singapore on her own, and although she has no plans to start her own school, she has a very successful private practice as a side-line to her "day" job.

Be Psychic (Singapore) is now closed for over 3 years, but I still receive reading requests, thank you's and requests for us to come back to Singapore to offer more training.  Hello Singapore, I do hear you.  We will be offering online classes soon, and perhaps in mid 2012 we may come for a few weeks to do some seminar versions of the Be Psychic classes.

Until then, no matter where you are in the world, if you are interested in learning about meditation, healing, clairvoyant, your own creative energy or just looking for a good healing or reading, I would like to refer your the the Berkeley Psychic Institute which offers all of it's courses online via Adobe meeting.  You can find out more about there courses and services at their website: http://www.berkeleypsychic.com.

Lewis Bostwick the founder of BPI and my teacher said, "You may be Psychic, not crazy."  This was also the name and topic for many of his open to the public lectures.  To his students he was most famous for saying, "Ground and run your energy, Dammit!"

Chronic Fatigue Syndrome

Before I moved to Singapore I took a holiday from the Information Technology market, and took a nine month full-time intensive Holistic Massage therapy course at NHI in Emeryville, CA.  A few months before I graduated I started my own practice by advertising on East bay coffee house bulletin boards and in the East Bay Express (a local rag newspaper.)  I was getting about 1 new client a week, which is actually pretty good if you are just starting out.  I also had name cards printed and gave them to everyone I knew.  My practice was growing but not fast enough to make a living at, so I applied at several reputable massage spas and salons, and finally got a part time hourly gig at Piedmont Springs in Piedmont, CA.  They had a strict policy of not soliciting their clients for our personal practices, but many of my clients actually asked me if they could get my services outside of PS. So I began picking up regular clients, about 3 a week.  This kept me busy about 4 days a week with about 5 clients.  I am very strong and had learned good techniques so I found I could actually do about 50 hours of massage a week. It was a great time in my life.  Soon I was making as much money as I did doing programming work.

I really enjoy doing massage work, and it complemented by psychic reading and healing practice.  Even more then that it made me healthy.

But let me rewind a bit.  The reason I had gotten into massage is that I was becoming listless and low energy. I even began going to doctors, when my healing colleagues didn't seem to be able to help me.  After my fourth visit to a new doctor, I finally got some answers.  The doctor told me that there was no way to conclusively diagnose my illness, but it did seem to her that I had chronic fatigue syndrome.  She said that her diagnosis was off the record and that there was nothing she could do for me.  She did suggest visiting a dietitian and that I would need to change my diet, cut out cheeses, meat and wheat.  Get lot's of  cardio-vascular excersize and massage everyday.  She said one of the best ways to save money was to join a vocational school program for learning massage.

About the same time I found out my friend Jon Cotton, was into this fasting thing.  He was a breathairian, which is this strange thing where you live off air and water, without eating food.  Ok, Jon is a bit eccentric, but he knows his stuff.  I began my Massage training and fasted for 3 month stretches, taking only supplements and watered down juice.  Which I alternated with psyllium husk shakes.  Psyllium rocks, it is this really good seed with a spongy outer shell which are super absorbent.  By drinking these husks mixed with water the concoction will actually pull out toxins and plague from your intestines.

Between the intense exercise of practising massage everyday, plus getting massage everyday and eliminating solid food from my diet, I totally kicked the chronic fatigue and began having unlimited amounts of energy. It was very cool.  By the time I was ready to graduate I began taking solid food, but stuck to a pure vegan diet with occasional small amounts of fresh fish.  This gave me the energy and stamina to do my massage practice as it started to heat up.

Unfortunately, I was not able to bring my practice to Singapore as there was too much in-expensive massage to compete with.  Although I did have a couple clients who came all the way to Singapore to get massages from me, believe it!  It still amazes me when I think about it.

One more thing I should mention about fasting is that you absolutely have to do colon irrigation of a frequent but irregular basis.  If you don't you can possibly suffer serious damage to your kidneys and other organs.  Fasting generally causes many trapped toxins in your fat, bones and other hiding places in your body to come out into your blood stream.  This means you can literally poison yourself from the inside out.

While I was in Singapore and Indonesia, many of the Muslim's also fast, although they do it differently.  They refer to it as a time of cleaning the body and purging the soul of sins.  I think they do have the correct idea.

So if you have chronic fatigue symptoms or syndrome, you should seek out an expert.  What I learned to do helped me, but there are so many ways to do it wrong that can be more harmful than good.   You should definitely know what you are doing before you get into something like that.  Also if you are going to do you own colonic irrigation make sure you do it with someone who has done it before and know what they are doing the first few times.  I know that sounds yucky, but it is not something to mess around with, I will say never never use any pressure during an enema or colonic.  Get a gravity bag, and you should be reasonably safe.

Ok now that I have complete grossed you out.  Thanks for reading.

Past exiting of my homeland(s).

It has been over 3 years since my return from Singapore, although I have since traveled back there and stayed for a time in Indonesia.  That is to say it has been over 3 years since I lived in Singapore.

I originally traveled to Singapore for a few reasons, mainly because I was so frustrated with my life at that time.  Particularly my relationships which all seemed to last between 1 and 2 years, that is since my 10 year marriage and divorce.  It was during that time I felt I was getting old and not accomplishing the things I had set out to do, on of those things which seemed to be slipping by was traveling the world.  So I decided to research where I might travel 2, starting with Asia and Africa as top level destinations.  I decided I wasn't ready for Africa although it seemed to call to me.  So picking the lesser of 2 evils (sorry I didn't mean it dear Africa) I choose Asia, which is probably and actually the most evil, but not as deadly.

In retrospect I see that most of my really big life changes have come from a dis-satisfaction with my love life.

Anyway after further research I concluded that Singapore would be my first port of call, because of it being the only Asian country where English is not only the first language, but is used by most of it's residents.  If you don't believe that, look it up.  T-h-e-y s-p-e-a-k v-e-r-y g-o-o-d e-n-g-l-i-s-h, although they are quick to point out they speak proper queens English.  This is also laughable, because it may not be our bastard american English, but it is pigeon Queens English. And that is it's true colour (not a misspelling, but rather honest and correct UK English.)

Anyway in my infinite male-slutiness I decided to recruit a Singapore girlfriend, which I managed to do before I even got there, I am so capable!  It always amazes me my (and people in general) ability to lie to oneself about one's motivations.  I guess we all have a bit of whore in us (don't deny it!)  In my defense I did really love her and married her which lasted over 10 years (OMG another pattern.)  She, or I should say we became disenfranchised the first time after I lost focus on my life (not again) and separated from her for a few months.  During that time I realized I was not doing my readings, meditating or teaching, which are all things I love to do.  Apparently these things were not only my love but also my heart, and it was withering.  So I returned to my wife and explained my unhappiness and that it had nothing to do with her.  That I had left because I needed to find myself and I had done so.  She was very intrigued and began sitting in my readings, learned to meditate and "control" energy.  She seemed to love it as much as I did, not only that I am very sure she found answers and power she may never have found without those experiences.

A year after my epiphany and reunion with my Singapore wife, I opened Be Psychic.  The name I sort of stole from a failing new age magazine called "BE."  Such a perfect name "BE".  What else could BE so perfect in describing human existence and spirituality.  But I could not steal it outright and BE by itself although profound is not a very good indication of what you do.... "What do you do?", 'Oh, I be!'  In my case I was being Psychic and that is also what I taught, to be psychic or to be of one's spirit.

My little school, Be Psychic, flourished and grew slowly but steadily for 8 years.  It was after the eight year that things went bad.  I had a Japanese graduate who opted to join our apprentice program.  She was not happy with the way things were and felt we should be more airy-fairy like most other people.  We didn't have enough beauty, false compassion and wishful thinking.  After I reprimanded her for trying to "fix" my little school she began campaigning with the other staff to over throw my little school.  Actually at first she tried to take all my staff and start her own love and light festival, when she found my staff were to loyal then she started sabotaging.  After some time everyone seemed to be revolting, at least it was to me.  My Singapore wife decided she didn't like the heat and got out of the kitchen, or in plain English she told me she no longer wished to work in the school.

I guess I had not realized how much I relied on her.  At first I just tried to respect her decision, but after some time I became more and more resentful that she had abandoned my mission and me.  Things just went down hill rapidly from there.  She began resenting me for spending so much time at the school and "caring about your stupid school more than me", I resented her for not being there.  I should have cleared the decks and just fired most of my staff, but I didn't trying to keep things together.  Our numbers went down, then we had a difficult time paying the rent.  Then I had to close down the school, which was so damn depressing I just lost hope.

I separated again, going my own way.  I began finding young ladies who glorified foreigner men and drowned my sorrows in tons of sweet young Asian pussy.  After 4 months of this I began to realize I could not keep this up, I felt shallow and empty, even lots of good sex could not disperse it.  I became deeply depressed and in a dark moment decided to end my life.  Taking a sharp knife I cut into my wrists, vertically so as to do it correctly.  Interestingly the knife could not seem to reach any large arteries.  I recall this has always been a problem for me, I would always have to look away when getting shots because the needle would simply break before it would find a vein or artery in my body.   Anyway, my suicide was failure, but the cutting sensation did seem to dull my pain.  It found ways to clear my head, and with great regret I realized I must return home and leave my beloved Singapore.